Vendredi 28 septembre 2007 à 19:09
« One day, you'll be great. » Her voice was
ringing in me. Perhaps she's right. No, she's only nice. She has always given
me some hope, but I was sure that I'll never do something of my life. I
couldn't move. I can't still move. They come, and come again, always smiling.
But I don't want their pitty. I'm not so different. I'm like everybody with my
particularities. But in the world, everybody is different, no? Whatever the
skin, whatever the country, whatever the religion, each one must be
considerated only like a person. Each person has her own place. Nonetheless
everybody knows that the world is unfair and the law of the strongest is always
present. We live in the jungle. The urban jungle. Can we really survive? I
survive since I was born, even if it's not everyday easy. But life is a fight
of everyday. I have always been a cliabily for my parents, I was not like
everybody, I was not “normal”. And nowadays, you must be normal to be accepted,
everybody knows that. That's also why, several times during my short and not
interesting life, I wanted to pass away, but she was always here. In front of
her eyes, I was always. Throughout her eyes, I lived. Everyday I saw her. She
made me dream. She simply helped me to forget the reality, a strong reality.
She was all and I was nothing. Nevertheless, my biggest fear became real when I
was not waiting for. Everyday she came at the same hour. But this morning, she
didn't come...